"The wheel keeps turning"

[denny]

"I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart.
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard ..." -- Linkin Park, In The End

I'm feeling quite a bit better today. I think my head broke so badly yesterday that the only way I could go was up. I'm still very sad, but it seems more controllable now. Mornings are still the most difficult bit... they meant a lot, and now there's a gap in them.

Last night I failed to hit a fairly important and easily achievable deadline at work, even after it had been extended twice (originally it was last Thursday). This has, unsurprisingly, failed to impress my boss. I'm a bit worried after the talk we had a few weeks ago... I can only hope that he can see the difference between me not putting enough effort in, and me trying really hard but failing. And that he cares about the difference.

I'm not really sure what's happening about my birthday... I had tentative plans for it to be really quite fantastic, but now it seems quite likely that they're not going to happen. I was also planning a bit of a party, which also won't happen as Helen is moving house that weekend. I may have to compensate for this problem by having a monster moving-in party when I get the new flat, although that's a way off. Still, maybe I'll be in a better mood for it by then... things keep changing so fast at the minute, at least some of them have got to change for the better again soon, right?

Comments

[valkyriekaren.livejournal.com]

I have the strip your icon comes from on my wall in the office. I may have to take it down though because at the moment it keeps making me weep.

[sepheri.livejournal.com]

Its doesn't seem to be a good time for birthday parties right now. I want to take a pin to very balloon in my icon today :(
Parties in the future sound like a better plan. Everyone kept saying that to me but I kept thinking 'but its my birthday!' and the idea of spending it alone really sucks.
Definitely not a good time for birthdays generally.

[squiddity.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that Helen's - and my - moving has turned out to be so badly timed :*(
My fault as well, it's my contract that is up that weekend :*(

What about a birthday event of an intimate nature on that weekend?
Helen will be finished moving on the Saturday and doesn't need to clean her old place that weekend, you could drag her off somewhere pretty?
And then save the blowout until the various stresses and complications are calmed and healthier?

Dammit, I'm thinking you are asking for solutions, that's terribly male of me - I'll indulge my feminine side briefly.

*hugs*
Everything will change for the better, you are an amazing person and are well worth having lots of really good shit happen!

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry that Helen's - and my - moving has turned out to be so badly timed :*(

This appears to be the month of 'shit happens'.

What about a birthday event of an intimate nature on that weekend?

Heh. That would be the original plan, now missing and assumed dead.

Helen will be finished moving on the Saturday and doesn't need to clean her old place that weekend ...

Apparently she needs to unpack as soon as she moves in - mental quirk of hers.

Everything will change for the better

Here's hoping.

[libellum.livejournal.com]

Mrr. I need to unpack soon after moving in - leaving it for over a week would do my head in. But I doubt I'll have the energy to do more house stuff on the Sunday. I was intending to spend Sunday seeing Corvus (with you?) and Monday with you, but since Corvus' plans seem to stop before Sunday now, maybe both those days could be ours?

We can be intimate even if not in the ways originally intended. Just because that plan's fallen through doesn't mean I'm not still here, and we can't still have a really really nice time. xxx

[pooloftrees.livejournal.com]

I'm really sorry that things aren't going so well for you at the moment. :-(
I hope that everything brightens up for you soon.

Take care, * hugs *.

G

[kaz-pixie.livejournal.com]

*squish*

Give me a shout if you need cheering up one lunchtime and I'll bring my funny hat and a pair of oversized sunglasses - I'm planning to have something going on with games/BBQ/people/DVDs on either sunday or Monday, and again on 15th I'll be having a house party so if you fancy all or any of those give me a shout :)

[cokephreak.livejournal.com]

things keep changing so fast at the minute

That is worth remembering.
Your birthday's still almost 2 weeks away - a lot can happen in that time.


Really, stop worrying about things that haven't happened yet.
You're not as good at it as me any-way.
;)

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

*grin*

[djlongfella.livejournal.com]

let me know when you want party, I have all the toys and are availabelt o you at very good rates ( Free )