One of those weeks I wish I could sleep through...

[denny]

Feeling pretty miserable again. A combination of causes, the thing at the end of the weekend started me off and then this complete fucking balls-up with the house sale has left me really seriously fucked up on the financial front.

I suppose it's nothing too serious really - at worst, I'll get taken to court and by then I'll have the money to pay them - but I could really do without the hassle.

It's times like this when I realise that I've not really recovered that much from how depressed I was after the accident. It doesn't take much of a backslide to leave me feeling like I'm on the edge of the long drop back down to being that low again. I don't seem to have any emotional strength any more... every time the world knocks me back I feel like I'm going to fall over again.


Update: in keeping with the universe's usual policy of kicking someone when they're down, I just got an email from my sister telling me that they are now unable to exchange contracts on the house sale until the 6th of May at the earliest. Oh dear.

Comments

[wildeabandon.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I get that a lot - I'm always surprised these days how much a fairly minor setback can upset me, considering what I've survived though, but I'm not sure that it does mean you're actually going to fall again. I think that having been depressed makes one hyper-aware of the chance of falling back there.

Have you done as asrana suggested and called all the people expecting money from you to explain the situation? I hate doing that sort of thing, but it feels a lot better afterwards.

I love you.

[valkyriekaren.livejournal.com]

She's right, you know. Most creditors will be fairly understanding if you give them a firm date to expect the money, and are proactive about contacting them before they have to contact you.

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately I've already given them two firm dates which have not happened. I think I'm lacking credibility by this point.

I have no other options though, so I will of course be calling them again and explaining the whole mess yet again. I suppose what I said in the original post remains true - at worst, I'm going to end up with a load of CCJs and stuff, but I will be able to pay within a fairly short time of them being issued. It'll be extremely inconvenient when I try to get a mortgage again in a year or two, but it's not going to kill me.

[valkyriekaren.livejournal.com]

To be honest, they're probably used to delays with house sales. See if you can get a letter from the estate agents explaining the situation which you can offer to fax to them?

[azekeil.livejournal.com]

Bum. Seems like we're all getting it at the moment. *hugs*

[ninneviane.livejournal.com]

No consolation I know, but there's seems to be something in the air atm...so many lives in turmoil, depression and stress rife...I know only too well the feeling of being constantly knocked back and fast running of steam on the emotional strength front. Be gentle on yourself, whilst it might not have been apparent to you, or maybe you've just expected too much of yourself, after such a life changing event, it was always going to take a long to fully recover emotionally. **thinks of spoons nodding to herself**
**tight hugs**
Not much I know, but all I can offer and a wish that life turns around for you very soon.

[blaadyblah.livejournal.com]

It's times like this when I realise that I've not really recovered that much from how depressed I was after the accident. It doesn't take much of a backslide to leave me feeling like I'm on the edge of the long drop back down to being that low again.

Yeah, but on the edge isn't being down there, is it?

You've come an awfully long way and all this shit is more bollocks, but you're not back down there, you're still on the edge. This is a good thing, hon. *pint*. You're doing ok.

[stuartl.livejournal.com]

Sounds like you need some hugs.

*hugs*