denny | Don't wanna.

I think I'm either getting, or have been, depressed again. Notoriously, depression in oneself is always tricky to spot. In fact I'd say it's one of the main defining characteristics, that you don't realise that your emotional state is abnormal - which makes it all the more crushing.

Anyway, lying in bed this morning, I realised that I didn't want to get up. Nothing new there, those who know me will grin. Well, yes, but it wasn't because I was tired... I was lying there wide awake, and almost palpably scared of getting up and facing the world. I thought about it and realised I've been this way every morning for days, at least. Maybe weeks, I don't know.

Anyway, you hardly ever get to catch a glimpse of this stuff when it's happening, and so I thought I should take this opportunity to let people who know me, know. Often, afterwards, when you snap out of it or drag yourself out of it, and start talking about it, people will say "You should have said!" and you'll say "I didn't realise until it was over". This time I think I've noticed while it's still happening.

As I hinted at the start, I don't know what that means about the timing - maybe the very fact that I've noticed means that it's all but over anyway. If so, great. If not... well, at least I managed to say something this time. Hopefully that'll help.

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charlie

I understand, more than I'm going to admit here; suffice to say you're not alone. *BIG hugs*

skiamakhos

Been there, done that. It's a total fucker, being depressed. All I can offer is advice you'll probably find anywhere but you might need someone close to you to kick you in the ribs enough to do it:
1) No booze. None, seriously. No drugs either if you're that way inclined
2) Exercise whenever possible.
3) LOTS of sex if you've a handy & willing partner.
4) Early to bed, early to rise.
5) Loads of water.
6) Make lists of good stuff in your life - again, here you may need help from a close friend if you're head-first down a depression hole. It's hard to turn round or see anything but the looming bottom of the hole.
7) Set goals. Big ones for life, then split them into smaller ones & smaller ones. Give yourself a treat any time you cross one off.
8) Spend time with your mates, talk about whatever's bothering you, have a laugh if you can.
It will go away eventually, but you have to take an active approach or you risk just sliding down into it.

From: (Anonymous)

*Hugs* if there's anything any of us can do, please do just ask.

alixandrea.livejournal.com

^That was me, by the way! ;-)

skiamakhos has some excellent suggestions, especially about making Things to Do lists and reqarding yourself every time you cross something off. Try not to become too overwhelmed by the items on the lists though; this is something that Dvae struggles with. x

ciphergoth

Thinking of you.

skorpion

Hmm, there isn't much to say that doesn't sound trite, but I'm thinking of you. If you want company, maybe we can use the USB cable thing as an excuse?