Ouch.

[denny]

I appear to have chewed a big hole in the inside of my cheek at some point in the last 24 hours. I've also bitten both my lips and my fingers until they bled at various times this week.

I don't really know why I'm so stressed (I'm presuming that's why I'm gnawing myself), given that so far this week is just fucking tedious. Feeling both sad and depressed now, which is great. Give it another week or two and I'll be writing bad poetry or something. Maybe I should paint my bedroom black while I'm at it?

Meh.

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[trishpiglet.livejournal.com]

Some suggestions for now, which you can take up or ignore

If you're chewing/gnawing maybe get hold of some plasticine or blu tack or beads to use as worry beads - something you can keep hold of and fiddle with. I find destroying items very satisfying; pencils are cheap and satisfying to break. Or popping bubble wrap? I buy bubble wrap in bulk because I'm an EBay seller and need it for wrapping. Could send you some if you like.

Don't know about poetry, I think you were joking - but writing can be helpful if you keep a note of how you're feeling. Using negative thoughts for creative expression can be good.

You're such a lovely boy, so sorry to see you down.

: (

xxx

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

Heh... I originally read that as "people are cheap and satisfying to break".

And yes, I was joking about the poetry. With the possible exception of my recent design/cutting on my wrist, I'm not really the creative type.

Should I be setting up camp on your doorstep?

[ravenselene.livejournal.com]

Ok so you having a shit time still....

How bad is it? Compared to the time spent on my sofa a few years back??

Remember... I love you. I'm here. Or there if you prefer?!

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

How bad is it? Compared to the time spent on my sofa a few years back??

At least I did something to deserve that mess... it didn't come as a complete fucking surprise.

I'm here. Or there if you prefer?!

I don't really want to see anybody. Well, nobody who wants to see me anyway.

What's happening?

[ravenselene.livejournal.com]

What is the state of play now? Last I heard you text saying the being friends thing seemed to be working out.......

I have stuff I'd like to talk about with you......

Don't shut out those who truely care, for better or worse so to speak..

I understand if you want to hide in your cave for a while but at least stay in touch?

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

She gave up on acting like my friend... didn't last long.

PLEASE TRY AND MOVE ON BABE

[ravenselene.livejournal.com]

She isn't worth it, she's done nothing but piss me off. Haven't seen her since she broke up with you and then went to Liz's house to have a session.

Liz doesn't speak to her now either.

I'm very very angry with her, you prob not in the best frame of mind to hear it right now so won't rant.

You've come through worse than this, your whole time with her was a lie.

Don't forget the good you have all around you.

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

your whole time with her was a lie.

Oh? In what way?

[ravenselene.livejournal.com]

Just got home....

Maybe I shouldn't have said that, I am very cross though....

I should also give her the benefit of the doubt perhaps, although not sure why I should.

Rather not write about on here...

[fiona-kitty.livejournal.com]

Don't know what to say, I just hope you pull through OK. Many hugs if you want them. FWIW I find you quite inspiring. It's easy for me to say, but don't give in.