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I feel very sad today.
It's surprisingly different from how I've felt over the last few weeks... in some ways it's a much purer (?) and far more intense feeling than being depressed and miserable, but in other ways it's not as painful. That doesn't really convey what I'm trying to say, but I can't think of any better words so far.
It's very strong though. Very very strong. I feel like I should be laying down and trying to sleep until it goes away, even though I'm not particularly tired. Obviously that's not practical, but it's a very compelling feeling nonetheless. I feel like I've taken a highly effective sleeping pill that's working on my spirit and emotions instead of my body and mind.
I think the best word for how it's making me feel is 'languid'. It's sort of how I imagine the last bit of death by drowning might feel. Apparently it's a pleasant way to go (how would anyone know that?). You're still dead afterwards though.
It's surprisingly different from how I've felt over the last few weeks... in some ways it's a much purer (?) and far more intense feeling than being depressed and miserable, but in other ways it's not as painful. That doesn't really convey what I'm trying to say, but I can't think of any better words so far.
It's very strong though. Very very strong. I feel like I should be laying down and trying to sleep until it goes away, even though I'm not particularly tired. Obviously that's not practical, but it's a very compelling feeling nonetheless. I feel like I've taken a highly effective sleeping pill that's working on my spirit and emotions instead of my body and mind.
I think the best word for how it's making me feel is 'languid'. It's sort of how I imagine the last bit of death by drowning might feel. Apparently it's a pleasant way to go (how would anyone know that?). You're still dead afterwards though.
