Hrm.

[denny]

Suddenly find myself very definitely depressed. Miserable, without the air of excitement that might include, and with no belief or even interest in the concept of things getting better at some point.

This shouldn't come as a massive surprise to me - my first proper dip into depression a couple of years back, while fuelled by many things, was almost certainly started or greatly accentuated by losing my job. My sense of self-worth seems to suffer greatly from not being considered 'employable' by the world at large. Perhaps this is why I never tried harder to succeed at being self-employed, despite that being the obvious answer to many of the problems I have with the typical workplace environment.

I'm not entirely sure why I'm posting this... I was going to ask people who see me to keep an eye out for me slipping into depression, but as soon as I started typing I realised I'm already here. So... I don't know what next. People who see me, please be aware that I may not respond to things in a normal manner, I suppose. It's nothing personal.

Comments

[kissycat1000.livejournal.com]

*hugs* may not be what you want but they're what was provoked by this post..

You're worth employment. You're smart and useful in your own unique way. It might not seem like that rght now, but it is in fact true. And the more you believe it, the truer it'll be.

[meirion.livejournal.com]

*hugs*. understand that all too well. the unemployed=>unemployable=>worthless chain is one i've been in (and to some extent am not yet recovered from) all too recently.

without a job i can't cope with the other shit in life. at all.

hope it's not quite that bad for you, and that the employment situation gets resolved soon.

-m-

[swiftangel.livejournal.com]

I'm afraid I can't offer much help at the moment. It seems all the bad things that could possibly happen, all have to happen at once for some reason. I'd say to try telling yourself that things can only get better at this point... but I tried that with my own depression and it only made me feel worse.

After all you've been through recently, you very much deserve a bit of good luck for a change. Here's hoping it comes your way soon.

*hugs*

[sartori666.livejournal.com]

Maybe we could all do with some Luck......

[feanelwa.livejournal.com]

You know you're more than just a job, that's why you run a website of your own for no reward and why you used to turn up to work at 11am. You are worth being given a job, you just don't have one right now.

[azekeil.livejournal.com]

Thanks for posting this. I don't talk to you enough as it is. The situation is made worse because there is a lot of competition for jobs at the moment. Remind yourself it's not all down to you and your abilities; there've just been a lot of things which have conspired against you.

It might not seem like it will help you in any practical way, but have you considered volunteer web-design work for charities or similar? Actually, thinking about it I think you have.. but I'm talking about one where people will show you appreciation. I think you know what I mean.

Lastly, *hugs*. :)

[aiwendel.livejournal.com]

*hugs*
you're great.
Believe it!
:)
your mood will swing.
*hugs* hope you feel a bit better soon.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[lzz.livejournal.com]

lots of *hugs*
you need to get to the doctor, the sooner the better.
Sounds like your employers are being arseholes, it's not a reflection on you at all. You are wonderful and lovely! and next week I shall take you to Oxford to cheer you up.

[ninneviane.livejournal.com]

**smiles gently**
Little suggestion, hope you don't mind...
Write a list to read last thing at night, and first thing in the morning, of all the positive things you have going for you (if you can't do it, get someone else to...it'll be their pleasure I guarantee it!).
This technique worked a treat for me a couple of years ago, forcing me into a positive pattern of thought, which I very much needed at the time.

If you can't see or remember your own worth in the low spots...allow others to remind you. **hugs**