*wibble*

[denny]

Just finished Ender's Game, which is a pretty good book. Now I can't see anything on my bookshelves that I want to re-read again yet - I've been hitting my book collection quite hard lately, partly due to simple boredom, but largely for escapism purposes, and I've worked through all the good stuff at least once, two or three times in some cases.

I now feel quite miserable - escapism withdrawal. Letters from lawyer that I opened this morning hasn't really helped - the wranglings drag on, and I'm in one of those moods where I can see the many potential endings where I get totally fucked over a lot more convincingly than the ones where I actually get some sort of justice out of the whole thing.

Money is not going well at all... I'm into borrowing against my credit cards again now, which is a losing game but I don't have any other options. I'm very concerned about trying to find work - I know there are more skilled people out there than me who've been looking for long months, and that's pretty scary. I've been living in the middle of a huge framework of debts for years now, and it's not standing up well to the sudden withdrawal of my income - let alone to the possibility that I might not be able to reclaim all of what I've lost through this accident.

I've run out of steam here - I've just sat staring at the cursor blinking for the last ten minutes or so - so I might as well hit 'update' and go back to investigating the bookshelf. Must be somewhere on there that I can escape to...

Comments

[fellcat.livejournal.com]

sudden withdrawal of my income

Incapacity Benefit is your friend here, although it probably won't fill up all the gaps.

[feanelwa.livejournal.com]

Eek *hug*

The money is very scary, but do keep realising that worrying about it isn't going to make the problems go away quicker, whereas doing what you can and taking the good opportunities to make the situation better (and leaving the bad!) is. And also remember - even if the good opportunities come along far less often than is fair, you still have friends who love you and will be there for you if you call them.

[hilarityallen.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean about hitting the bookshelf - when I was depressed I was getting through a number of books (though only certain types - others were too depressing for me to read), and I couldn't replenish fast enough to stop rereading (no money) and I was reading too fast for rereading the stuff I'd already reread. If you see what I mean. They hadn't lain fallow long enough for me to want to go back to them so quickly.

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

Yes, I'm definitely reading books of a few definite types - escapist stuff, really; space opera, comic fantasy, cyberpunk type stuff. The latter probably doesn't really count as light escapism, but it's my favourite type of sci-fi, so I can pretty much always read it.

I might try a tour of charity shops at some point, see if I csn find anything cheap to occupy a few days... although, really, I need to stop reading for a few hours and get some practical stuff done. Meh.

[dj-pooka.livejournal.com]

I dunno if you've read them yet, but if you get the chance check out the Neal Stephenson stuff - very funny cyber/cypher punk stuff :D

Your list of books is remarkably similar to mine, but I tend to add fantasy as well to the list. At the moment unemployment is not doing much for my book reading - I'm demolishing books at an alarming rate, even re-reading stuff for the nth time...

[valkyriekaren.livejournal.com]

Know what you mean about books - I have a huge amount of reading matter from the academic (The Metrical Grammar of Beowulf) to the frivolous ("The Kissing Companion"), encompassing SF, 'classics', modern fiction, pop-psychology, medieval poetry and 'women's erotica'), and I still find myself staring at the shelves lost for something to read. And when I do make a decision, it quite often turns out to be the soft porn anyway!

oh, dennyd, you were in my dream again last night. Very nice it was too.

[androktone.livejournal.com]

what is it you actually do? could you get a contract to work mostly from home?

[dennyd.livejournal.com]

I'm a programmer - Perl CGI stuff, mostly, database backends. I could work from home, if I could find any work, yes.

**Nuggle**

[tacohell.livejournal.com]

Oh babe... Wish there was a magic wand I could wave to make it all better. You've been there for me so many times when I've needed lifting up, I wish I could repay those times. Hopefully your visit this week will help a little bit (it's a change of scenery at least!) and I really am looking forward to seeing you.

And you're quite welcome to riad my book collection! **kiss huggle**

[lzz.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm sure you'll find a job soon - have you heard any more about those Oxford ones? and you're more than welcome to borrow any of my insane amount of books...