Leave me alone please don't leave me alone

[denny]

Last night I was answering a quiz, and I was absolutely stopped dead at the first question - I couldn't choose which was the more accurate of two ansers:

Q. What do you enjoy the most?
1. Being alone.
2. Being with friends. Anywhere, doing whatever; it doesn't matter - being alone terrifies me..

Now there's a slight problem there, you can probably spot it.

I feel the same tonight. I'm painfully lonely. But if anyone was here, I'd want to hide at the opposite corner of the house from them.

How are you supposed to drag your head back into line when it does this sort of thing? Because I'm actually getting pissed off with it now.

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[dennyd.livejournal.com]

Perhaps being in a chat room would be a good compromise? You could satisfy the loneliness and yet still be alone. ?

I guess that's kind of how I'm using LJ. Even a chat room feels too intrusive. LJ has enough distance for me to be able to cope with it, but still some vague feel of 'people' about it.

There are plenty of things I should probably use the time alone to get on with... paperwork screams for attention, and housework mutters sullenly. Other things too. I just, don't have the energy/enthusiasm for anything.